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Chapter 2 -- The Subjectivity of Experience

"The secret of all this is one's attention...."
-- Castaneda

The Robotic Mind

Most people live out their days as if they were robots! The stranger or more excentric someone is, the more obvious this robotic behavior is to other people. The human mind and body is a wonderful machine. Unfortunately, most people are asleep at the switch, and their personality repeats the same patterns day after day, all by itself; a collection of habitual behavior. I should point out that there is really no way to avoid this completely. We all do it to some extent. However, awareness of what we are doing, when we are doing it, is the first step to changeing our behavior, if we want to.

Are you one of the unbedazzled?

Most of us are over-concerned with ourselves--or in what we conceive of as ourselves (the ego). That over-concern can isolate us from our natural energies and reduce our efficiency. The ego colors perception so that we see (and experience) what we expect--not necessarily what is true--and everything becomes very subjective.

The ego is an automatic animal-like part of our being. It resides mostly in the subconscious, so that it is all too easy to forget it there, and what it is doing. But it is there. It is alwyas there. The ego is simply a mechanism concerned with physical survival. This mechanism, which is designed to protect us, often results instead in stilted, mechanical behavor, causing most people to indulge in the same moods and compulsions over and over again. Thus, we constantly experience the same emotions and behavior patterns. The ego cannot (and should not) be destroyed. Anyone who claims to have destroyed his ego is lieing. There is little we can do to radically change outer personality, anyway. Nor is such change usually needed. But you can learn to control the ego. Control of the ego requires self-discipline.

The Subjectivity of Experience

Whenever you look at something you play the role of an observer. If you look at yourself, you still play that role. Even when you look at your own thoughts, you play that same role of an observer. You play that role when you think about anything you can experience.

The role of an observer is subjective, because you play it against/through your ego. Doing that biases and colors your observations to conform with your expectations. Your five senses (hearing, sight, smell, touch, taste) continually send information to your ego, and it is up to your ego to select and interpret them. If you could not do so, your senses would overwhelm you and be meaningless.

Selection and interpretation of your sensory inputs is essentially an automatic, mostly subconscious function. The program or map which the ego follows as its reference point is called a 'model'. The model is a subconscious mental photograph of how you believe the world looks (ie. worldview, mindset, egregore, or belief system). It was built up from an early age by your religious and cultural background through interaction with family and others. It contains your experiences, attitudes, and habits. And whether you realize it or not, most of your behavior, thoughts, feelings, and habits are based upon and conditioned by that model; even personality. The model is one of the mind's master programs. You can think of the ego operating with the model as a censor or gateway.

Change in behavior generally requires a change in the model, although there are exceptions. These limitations built into our way of thinking cause our perceptions to be subjective. That is why Hindu philosophy looks upon the world as illusory (maya); the world itself (object) is not an illusion, however from our viewpoint, playing the role of an observer, through perception and the ego (subject) it is.

Behavior runs deep. Thus, we are all conditioned by experience. Except that our perceptions, hence our experiences, are first conditioned and limited by the model. Our perceptions and experiences tend to conform to what we expect. We tend to misinterpret or ignore things which do not match our preconcieved notions about them. This is automatic.

Outside Influences

Some writers (one in particular) think we are heavily programmed by outside influences. Whether or not this is true, the process is the same (affecting our conditioning). Some people also think there are adverse environmental influences from radio waves and other sources which interfere with the healthy functioning of our brain and body. However, that seems to be a pretty extreme viewpoint.

The True Will

There is a separate reality within each of us which is often ignored unless we seek it. This inner self is in magick called the 'true will'. The true will is the center of consciousness and identity. It is the 'real you'. It is the center within the circle; the settlement within the citadel. That which surrounds it is a barrier to it. Everything besieds the true will is an interface or link to it from the outer (illusory) world. Since that interface is based upon our model, it is conditoned and may sometimes produce false information. 'Do what thou wilt' (Crowley) is an axiom of magick; for the true will expresses our exact desires. And what we truly want ('down deep') we tend to automatically get. This isn't always in our best interests, since the true will can be conditioned (tricked) by the illusion; and then we might desire and obtain that which is not ultimately good for us. (Karma strikes again!) The task of the magician therefor is to awaken his awareneess of the true will, to be free of conditioning of the ego and the model, and thereby to transcend maya.

"My will unconditioned is magical."
--Spare

The Modality of Consciousness

Normal waking consciousness is in terms of the senses (modality).

Alterned states of consciousness are achieved by turning down the senses through concentration and imagination.

Concentration is the purest thought.

Concentration is will unconditioned.

The Discovery of Freedom

Each pattern or 'role' is a sub-personality which feeds other sub- personalities and is fed itself. The circular, reinforcing nature of sub-personalities forms a behavior complex. Behavior complexes require mental energy to run. When a behavior complex is shattered, energy is released. Elementals and demons correspond with sub-personalities.

There is great energy in freedom. And the task of the magician and of the mystic is the same. It is to discover freedom. The discovery of freedom may require a whole lifetime, or it might occur in the blink of an eye. Freedom is funny that way.

The type of freedom I am talking about is a freedom from attachment. However, that is not to say there is no attachment. There is always some attachment. Even attachment to freedom from attachment is attachment. Attachment binds and ties us down. And when the attachment is too strong, it limits the soul's potential. When the soul becomes unattachend it is free to soar to great heights. When the soul becomes unattached it is surrounded by tremendous amounts of energy.

Attachemnt uses up energy. Since the energy in a being is finite, when more energy is used by attachement, there is less energy for the soul. And when the energy becomes very small, we may feel trapped. But it is all an illusion (the Hindu maya) brought about by the attachment.

If we can decouple ourselves from our attachements we become unconditioned by them, and we begin to live more in freedom. In freedom there is bliss.

Happiness Is Being Happy

There is no great secret to changing behavior or habits. It is largely a matter of determination. It requires that you ignore the 'pull' of the model when you strive for changes within yourself. The model is, after all, a collection of 'habits', some of which must be unlearned for permananent change to occur. There are two ways to do this: direct, through will power and awareness alone -- observing and acting out in an unattached or indifferent manner; and indirect -- through conditioning such as affirmation (explained later), self-hypnosis, and magick. Meditation may help too, by relaxing tension and conflict.

Emotions follow physical expression: smile and act happy and you will tend to feel and be happy. The same is also true for other emotions. Also, emotions can be purposely used (or programed) to replace other emotions. Using this technique, a magician is somewhat like an actor in that he learns how to turn his emotions on and off at will. Note that this is not 'fakeing it'; the magician is probably more in touch with his true feelings than most people. And for these reasons we say that happiness is being happy.

Systems of Magick

Magick always involves self-hypnosis. However, it may be more than that. For one thing, there are objective forces involved (or so it would seem). Deities, spirits, and cosmic force can have an independent existence. And the repetitive physical movement sometimes involved in ritual can itself generate PK force. On the other hand, it could be argued that all of this is subjective to the magician. Or that the deities and spirits are nothing more than architypes or cosmic patterns which the magician energizes with his own vitality. Perhaps all magical effects could be produced through hypnosis alone. But the effects are certainly real.

Great complexity is not necessary in magick. Although basicly magick is a medieval system of symbolism (in a modern context), any cosmological system will work from Cabala to Star Wars. We usually use the medieval one in magick because it is convenient and traditional, and because it seems to fit our thought processes well. Traditional symbols have greater emotional effect on the magician than modern ones because of his familiarity with them. What really matters is that the model of the magician be understood and programmed, and thus that the model and the cosmological system do correspond.

Self Imposed Limits

We may actually be limiting ourselves, our power, and our potential by our own preconceived notions about our capabilities. This may take the form of self-sabatage or limits to magical or psychic abilities. It may be possible to accomplish much more by opening our minds to possibilities.

Metaprogramming and the Theory of Magick

We can change the model by reprogramming it. Since to do so implies change to one of the mind's master programs, we call this process 'metaprogramming'. Magick achieves results through metaprogamming the mind/model of the magician. The desired magical result is impressed on the model. Once the model has been reprogrammed, the subconsious automatically works to manifest in reality from the new perspective of the model. The subconscious uses whatever means are at hand to accomplish this goal. And since psychic abilties also operate through the subconsious, they are automatically brought into play as needed.

Review Questions

1) Contrast subjective with objective.
2) What is a 'model'?
3) Explain the task of the magician.

Counterpoint

1) What are the implications of 'Do what thou wilt'? How much of experience must occur in conformity with the true will? How much of this concept is solipsism?

2) The statement, "Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the law", is generally attributed to Aleister Crowley. However, we find a similar statement in the writing of Rabelais, which preceeded it. Also there are similar statements by Franz Bardon, as well as in the Wiccan Rede. Study the origins, authenticity, and meanings of this statement.

Book List

Steven Ashe, Qabalah of 50 Gates.
Richard Bach, Illusions -- The Adventures of a Relulctant Messiah.
Eric Berne, Games People Play.
Fritjof Capra, The Tao of Physics.
Carlos Castaneda, The Fire From Within.
Guy Finley, and Dr. Ellen Dickstein, "How to Use the Power of Inner Storms to Live Stress Free", Mystic Pop magazine, July/ August, 2006.
Vernon Howard, The Mystic Path to Cosmic Power.
Arthur Koestler, The Roots of Coincidence.
Lawrence LeShan, Alternate Realities -- The Search for the Full Human Being.
John C. Lilly, The Center of the Cyclone.
------, Programming and Metaprogramming in the Human Biocomputer.
------, Simulations of God -- The Science of Belief.
Alan Watts, The Book (on the taboo against knowing who you are).


Phil Hansford, 12/2007
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